The observable examined

A favorite song!

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Nirpadhuve nadappadhuve  by Subramanya Bharati

Nirpadhuve nadappadhuve parappadhuve(3)
Things that stand , walk…fly
NeengaL ellam soppanam thaano
are you but dreams and illusions?
Pala thotRa mayakkangaLo
Products of my thoughts and conceptions?
KaRpadhuve ketpadhuve karudhuvadhe
The learnt, the heard, the imagined
NeengaL ellam ardhamaiyaigaLo
are you half illusiory?
ummuL aazhndha poruLillaiyo
without any deep significance?
ummuL aazhndha poruLillaiyo

Oh Sky!
early sunlight!
Oh fallen tree!
Vaanagame ILaveyile maracharive(2)
NeengaL ellam kaanalin neero
are you all but a mirage?
Verum kaatchi pizhaithaano
just a display thing?

Ponadhellaam kanavinaipol
udaindhaezhundhe ponadhanaal
for, what I lost , was gone like a dream
Naanum or kanavo
am I too but a dream?
indha gnalamum(?) Poithaano
and is this insight a lie too?


Kaalamendre oru ninaivum
one memory, it’s called time
Kaatchi endru pala ninaivum
and another, called vision
Kolamum poigaLo
are all these appearances lies
andha gunangalum poigaLo(2)
and their qualities, are they lies too?
Kaanbadhellaam maraiyumendraal
because if everything you see would vanish eventually
Maraindhadhellaam kaanbamandro
I should, then, see everthing that has vanished
Naanum or kanavo
because I too am but a dream
Indha gnalamum(!) Poithaano
and this insight is illusory too.

Lechi used to listen to this song on our rides to the hospital. While the song is intrinsically so rich in meaning, it is also immensely poignant and carries very special significance for me . Lechini, at this stage, was contemplating life and death issues, as treatment options were slowly running out. While I never had a chance to discuss these issues with her (particularly death), primarily due to our cultural baggage preventing direct discussions of said topics, I can only imagine her struggling with these very deep questions. After the scattering at sea, I heard this song on our way back, I had to fight very hard to hold back my tears.


Written by asterix98

August 21, 2010 at 4:36 pm

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  1. This song reflects Lechi’s serene personality. Always calm even amidst a storm , never too emotional and very insightful. Her thoughts were always deep and lofty. Her answers to many questions were unquestionably wise. She has been a wonderful sister and a very good friend to me. It is indeed a very huge loss and within weeks we have nothing to but ashes, Of course the wonderful memories that we have should be shared and cherished. She has always been a phone call or a ride away, now when you face the reality that you can never ever see her or hear her makes wonder “Naanum or kanavo, Avalum Or kanavo” -Chubbi


    August 21, 2010 at 11:55 pm

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